starts with no collage,
4 l e t t e r s,
o n e word :
L O V E
There are no words to describe how it feels h a v i n g t o l e a v e someone you love.
I love beyond words the person I'm leaving from.
Then again, love is all about two basic things simultaneously,
{ however contradicting they might appear }
being willing to c o m m i t
{ commitment is a c t i o n s }
&
being willing to l e t g o .
Life asks me to do the first and so I am.
I'm letting go, however every bit of my newly emerged self is an outcome of
this relation ship
I can let go of him, but not of who I've become.
And who I am is a big percentage him.
It's a part of me I've come to be familiar with,
embrace, accept and most of all love and feel comfortable with.
Thanks to t h i s relation ship,
which begun with the most wonderful
"I know I'm not supposed to say that yet but...
I love you and I know I'll see you again" scenes,
{generously offered by life to me, us, him & I being the protagonists rather than just moved viewers
watching a Hollywood movie, almost some 6 years ago}
having taken place on a very i d y l l i c surrounding,
on an almost private, tiny Greek i s l a n d ,
under the midnight sky of warm autumn nights
and f i r e being exchanged between a pair of the w a r m e s t blue eyes that exist in the world
and another pair of eyes with a color ranging from bright green to chestnut brown { these would be mine}
Thanks to t h i s relation ship,
YOU my dear all, are able to read e v e r y w o r d written here from the very beginning some 4 years ago till now,
you are able to s e e my view of capturing the world & emotions through my c a m e r a,
thanks to t h i s relation ship my inherited t a l e n t s
got a f e r t i l e ground to unveil, to evolve, to get expressed and shared
w i t h o u t any fear.
Everything you perhaps like, admire or even love about me and what I do,
is taking place because someone I felt was an angel fallen from the sky,
b e l i e v e d in me & told me I'm wonderful.
Someone offered me the t i m e to experiment & to discover
Someone offered me the t o o l s to do it.
D o n ' t e v e r h e s i t a t e to encourage others to f o l l o w t h e i r d r e a m s .
Don't lie to them.
But if you see p o t e n t i a l,
then just selflessly e n c o u r a g e them to s p r e a d t h e i r w i n g s .
No matter how I let go of him,
I am part of him.
This is why leaving everything behind me makes no sense.
I'm leaving just material things behind me,
while taking e v e r y t h i n g wonderful inside my heart.
Practically, some things are packed to be sent to my temporary home in Greece,
till I come back to s t a r t again on a new basis,
unpacking then all favorite things that will be in the meantime stored in a garage.
I'll go on with everything I do,
infusing more and more love, effort & concrete planning in it.
O n e c a n e s c a p e m a n y t h i n g s b u t l o v e n o t .
Without it there wouldn't be any existence.
Have you dear all thought of it at all?
somehow I think you have.
the way I have.
Now, I'm strong enough to create my own basis.
currently broken , but alive
And as time passes, h e a l i n g will come,
through love for creativity & sharing...
and there'll be sweet times & carefree times once more..
{ I know it's a risk to be returning to a bankrupt country with current, huge unemployment
but my tool is the I n t e r n e t , which means I can work from A N Y W H E R E
&
I can travel E V E R Y W H E R E for WORK }
till eventually L O V E manifests again in my life
in the most wonderful & appropriate of ways.
Thanks for reading through,
I'm trying to keep you posted and not abandon this place
despite the current madness of organizing all this {unwished for} l i f e c h a n g e,
while ensuring it runs as smooth as possible.
The most w o n d e r f u l o f w e e k e n d s to you!
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