Creating m i r a c l e s ~

I've been having a  m o s t l y   b l e s s e d   l i f e .

It seems as if it is all falling apart.

My current home,

my life partner,

my surroundings,

friends here I've bonded with,

all that make up my every day life.

It's shortly ago that I felt so  i n c r e d i b l y   b l e s s e d . . .

I've been actually repeating that since the beginning of the year,

perhaps for the first time in my life so intensly.

Still, life insists on  k n o c k i n g   l o u d l y   o n   m  y   d o o r 

that there is something  I  m u s t   l e a r n

for my own benefit, growth, security

and quite possibly for being able to share with others.

T o d a y ,

the  d e e p e s t   r e a l i s a t i o n  was felt right in the center of my belly:

I've allowed myself to be abused as an adult.

No, I haven't in fact been abused,

I've rather had  a s s u m e d   t h e   r o l e   o f   a  v i c t i m,

which led into certain ways of interactions in almost all kind of my relation ships.

Since this post that I realised & gave value to the fact that

I   d o   h a v e   a   v o i c e,

{ a strong, warm, loving, brilliant voice! }

It was only a matter of time,

that I reach to the conclusion that  n o w 

is the time to become

a  c r e a t o r .

A creator my own  l i f e   &   f u t u r e .

And as shared here,

I'll paint it  b r i g h t  &  j o y o u s  &  c r e a t i v e  &   l o v i n g   &  p r o s p e r o u s .

All the  p r e c i o u s   i n g r e d i e n t s   of my individual  L i f e  s o u p ,

have been successfully gathered.

Time for developing my  o w n   r e c i p e.

  

I guess part of making it  t a s t y   &   n u t r i t i o u s

is peeling off and cutting the  o n i o n s.

Well,  t h a t  involves dropping some tears.

They'll be tears of  h a p p i n e s s  in the end 

{and that end will be a new beginning}

Much love,

Iro